Where to start?????

I have been on quite a journey over the past several months. As you can probably tell from the few posts that I have shared, things were not going well. I want to get back on track and tell you about my “beading journey”. But first, I think I need to give you some background information.

Bouncing Wolf Creations has been around for quite a few years now. I have done many things with my business, all of the bead related.

First, I sold patterns on line. That was a great outlet for my creativity and it helped me to further develop my storytelling and writing skills.

Then, when I had a lot of samples made (from testing my patterns) I took my business on the road. I vended at Pow-wow’s, wineries and craft shows. For several years, we made money.

Then came 2015. Sales really slowed down. and more and more people just came to “look”. When I did the receipts for the year, I realized that we had come pretty close to just breaking even for the year. Not good!

We went into 2016 with caution. We did choose to eliminate events where sales had declined from our calendar for the year. That meant fewer events, but as long as we made money, it was okay. It gave me more time at home to be creative too.

But then, the worst happened. In 2016, we lost money. We were making just a little bit over our vending fees for each event. That did not cover our other expenses and it did not leave any money for repairs if something broke. It was a BAD situation.

I was also trying to sell items here and on Facebook with very little success. When I would post an item, it never failed that people would not want that item, but they would want me to create something special for them. They either wanted a different size, color, or design. Or they wanted something totally different. This might seem like a good thing, but what it really meant was that I was stuck with the item that I had made AND, I had to go out and get supplies to make the requested item. Custom work is challenging. It requires a lot of brain power and a lot of supplies on stock.

And the thing that made me feel the worst was the people who treated me like Pintrest. Instead of purchasing, they picked my brain to find out how i made it. I am guessing that they thought they could either make it themselves or make it and sell it. Good luck with that! My sales were terrible, and my heart was not getting any encouragement.

So, in December of 2016, I made the decision to only do two events in 2017.

As many of you know, I live with Severe Clinical Depression and Panic Attacks — or PTSD. Notice, I said LIVE!!! I am not a victim! I am a survivor.

When things get bad, I turn to my creativity to help me find peace and balance again. But now…. enter the big problems.

Knowing that I was only going to do two vending events this year, I found all of my creative efforts to be a waste. Who was going to see what I made? Was it just going to sit on the shelf and gather dust? Why waste my time?

We also had a few personal family issues enter the picture around this time. I won’t go into those here, but know that they did nothing to help my mood. I sunk deeper and deeper into depression.

Well, I think I am going to leave the story here for today. I think I have given you enough to digest for a day or two. This story is one best told in installments. Come back, I promise, It will be worth it.

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