I know the place I left off was really dark and sort of a cliff hanger. But that is what a good story teller does. We try to leave you wanting more. Unless it is depression! Who wants more of that?
I certainly didn’t and still don’t. But…..
My husband has been thru this whole rodeo ride with me, several times. He has a saying “Just do one thing!” Every day! Do one thing. I could not get motivated to make anything new. So I turned to a UFO.
I had started this quilt about 7 years ago. I had been an avid quilter for many years. But I put this one aside when I got Tanner. You see, my previous dog had been a pin-eater. I didn’t know it, until he got sick. When I got Tanner, I just did not want to take a chance. No Pins!!! I stopped sewing and quilting.
But the rhythm of hand-quilting is very soothing. And in 7 years, the industry had put out some wonderful tools that eliminated my need for pins. So I decided to give it a try.
I worked for hour, after hour, after hour on the is piece. And I finished it. I was feeling a bit better, but still not there yet.
I even tried some beadwork. I did some really different things. Most of these pieces are slowly transitioning into art pieces. But I was still feeling futile.
Then, I reconnected with my torch and healing started to happen. I guess because as a Scorpio, I am a water spirit, healing comes from balance. I had been crying a lot of tears and now I was working with flame.
My family even took me on an overnight trip to Corning NY to visit the glass museum. It was really re-ignited my passion. But my skills are a bit lacking.
I have spent hours watching videos, reading books, studying others work, asking questions and practicing to get to what you see here. And why am I doing it? you may ask?
I am not looking to sell these beads, although I could when I get better. I am just looking to enjoy doing again.
I have also decided to eliminate some items from the things I make. No more moccasins or bonnets! No more jewelry!!! It is just not for me.
I am going to focus on my Tree of Life pieces and my other art pieces.
I am still not whole again. And depending on how you define OK, I might not be that either. But I am seeing light! Light is a good thing! Balance is better and hopefully I will get there again, someday!
Thanks for listening. Hope you come back soon to see what I am up to next!